Every so often I get the itch to start looking at getting a new Bible. My wife says I have a bad habit of collecting them. Currently I am mainly using a personal size ESV Study Bible that I love. The problem is that it is TruTone and starting to show lots of wear and has me worried about it’s ability to hold up. I would love to find something a bit easier to carry and with a quality leather cover that will last me a long time. I am really interested in either staying with ESV or possibly trying a new CSB that comes out in March. Does anyone have any suggestions that they use?
Last week, I had the pleasure of visiting two new schools (new to me) that were either wanting to start an FCA Huddle or have been going with no FCA staff presence. In both of these situations I was blessed to meet teachers that genuinely care for their students and want to see them come to know Christ. In both situations I was able to leave one of our FCA Coaches Bibles with the teacher and it was great to see how they were so appreciative to not only have a copy of God’s Word, but one specifically designed to help them grow in their walk as coaches/teachers and reach their students. Coming out of the Christmas season I have given many gifts lately. However, it was so refreshing and just a blessing to me to see true joy that comes from giving and receiving gifts that will make an impact on eternity for Christ. I pray that God will give me more and more opportunities to share gifts of the Gospel!
I know, I know, I know that New Year’s resolutions are usually those things that we say we are going to to do and then we never keep up with them. If we are good we keep them for a week and if we are lucky sometimes maybe a month. And yet we still keep trying to do them. That’s where I find myself this year, back at trying to keep resolutions.
The first resolution that I wanted to do this year was to find a devotional that I could work through during my quiet time throughout the year. Thankfully for Christmas I was given a copy of New Morning Mercies by Paul David Tripp. It’s a year long devotional that has a new thought for you to read each morning, then expands on that thought, and then sends you to scripture to reflect on what God says. This devotional has been a huge blessing in my walk with Christ and is something that I honestly can’t wait to jump into each morning. If you are looking for a good devotional to work through this year I highly recommend this one.
As always, my second resolution is to start taking better care of myself physically. Erin and I were blessed with a gift at Christmas that allowed us to join our local YMCA. We have been trying to do things as a family there to be healthy like swimming, but I’m also trying to get up early enough to go workout and get myself to a healthier weight and state of mind. So far things are going well, and I am committed to really taking the necessary steps. For some reason going to the gym isn’t as daunting when you don’t work there all the time!
There are many days left in 2017, but I am committed to becoming both spiritually and physically fit in the days, weeks, and months ahead!
If you have been following this blog or just know me in general you know that this has been a crazy year for me and my family. After much prayer we felt God leading us from a ministry where we had spent the past 11 years into full time ministry with FCA. That led to not only changing ministries, but selling our house, buying a new house and moving, having to go back out on deputation to raise quite a bit more financial support and countless other changes to our family life. Then once things were finally starting to feel a bit more settled, my wife Erin was diagnosed with breast cancer and had to have a double mastectomy.
Through all these changes and events I have had to do more thinking and praying than I ever thought possible. I have truly seen where I really have no control over anything and God has control over everything. I have seen things that look like huge mistakes turn out to be God’s way of providing for future needs. It’s been a true time of faith development in my life.
Even though I have seen my faith grow and my dependence on God grow over these past few months there have been times I have definitely struggled with depression and even wondering if have made the right choices. As the uncertainty of financial support has weighed on me and just the stress of learning a new ministry and making new contacts there have been those times where I have questioned whether or not I should have done the easy thing and stay where I knew what I had to do and knew the finances would be enough. These particular doubts changed for me last Thursday as I took a cute little 6 year old out on a date.
Last Thursday my son Judah had to go to the eye doctor and so my wife asked me to take our daughter Maeven out on a little date. It was funny, because Maeven was so excited she got all dressed up for me and even put on a little “makeup” (chapstick lip balm) for the date. So while Mommy and Judah were at the eye doctor, Maeven and I went to Dunkin Donuts for our breakfast date of frozen hot chocolate and peppermint donuts. Maeven made sure we got the big comfy leather seats where we could talk comfortably as we munched on our goodies.
I started out asking her how her school year was going and about her new friends that she had made, and of course about what she wanted for Christmas. Maeven then surprised me and asked me why we had moved to Richmond this year. I told her that Mom and Dad knew God wanted us to work with FCA and Richmond was where He wanted us to do that. I then asked her if she was happy with our move or not?
One thing you need to know about my daughter is that when asked a question, she is very high truth and tells you exactly what she is thinking. With no thought at all, Maeven said, “Yes!” I then asked her why she was so happy with our move. Once again without having time to think Maeven said to me, “because you are home more Daddy and I get to spend lots of time with you!”
Right away I told her that I loved that too and did my best to fight back the urge to tear up hearing those words from my sweet girl. All those worries about whether or not I had made the right decision to transition ministries and move my family really melted away. While I am so thankful for all the years of ministry I had previously had there was so much time that I was away from my family. And I always justified it by saying that the ministry was important and that my kids were too little to notice. However, as Maeven’s moment of truth had shown me, they had noticed. They knew there dad wasn’t around as much as they would like me to be and I knew that I had missed a lot.
Within my new ministry role, I know there will be lots of ups and downs, lots of stresses and pressures, and lots of time that I am out from my family. At the same time it does afford me much more time to spend with my family and be there when they need me to be. Whether that be taking care of my wife as she recovers from here battle with breast cancer or just having that needed quality time with my kids I am truly thankful for all that God has brought us through this year and all that is to come. I am so thankful that He can use a sweet 6 year old girl to bring encouragement and joy too!
On Friday, I “celebrated” my 36th birthday. For a year that has had so many big life changes and still seems to be in flux the big day came and went with little to no excitement.
I am thankful though for all that God has done in this past year. From giving my wife and I a clear vision to join staff with the Fellowship of Christian Athletes, to actually having the courage to move forward and leave the ministry we have been with for the past 11 years and that I grew up in. Since then it’s been a year of faith and trusting God to take care of our family through the selling of our old house and buying of a new one, moving to a new city, and once again raising support. Then this fall came the biggest and most unexpected event, when my wife was diagnosed with breast cancer.
Through it all God has been faithful. He has truly kept His word in Hebrews 13:5 where He promises that He will never leave us, nor forsake us. I don’t know what this next year is going to bring, but hopefully it won’t be quite as eventful. No matter what I know God is in control. Maybe #37 will be a bday that is a little more exciting and not weighed down by life.
We are in the home stretch of #GivingTuesday and it has been great to see God bless today. Would you please consider making an end of the year donation to our ministry with FCA or better yet becoming a monthly financial partner and member of our Home Team? Just click on the donate link on this page and you will be take to our myFCA page where you can donate. I hope you will join us today!