…waking up is hard to do…

Yesterday, I posted about my struggle to let go and declutter and so today I figured I would just keep on confessing my struggles.  Mornings are my enemy.   At night I struggle to wind down from the day and end of staying up late, and quite often when I do go to bed struggle with insomnia.  With both of those issues it makes morning a tough time for me.  I am the type of person that can stay up all night for a youth lock-in, but when I do go to sleep I am dead.  I still am able to get moving when I really have somewhere to go to or to do, but those mornings where nothing is pressing are rough.  I realize how much more productive I could be in the mornings if I would get going.  More time would be available for reading, time with the family, chores, and most importantly quiet time with God.  It’s a struggle that I am giving over to prayer and trying to change my ways.  Any advice from other non-morning people is much appreciated!

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feeling tired, but happy

me and my boy...

me and my boy…

Last night as I was just starting to finally get into some good sleep, I heard the sound of my son Judah starting to cry.  I had checked on him a little bit earlier and he sat up to look at me which is never a good sign, but it took him a few minutes to work it into a cry.  I laid in bed hoping he would go to sleep, but the cry kept working its way into weeping and so I pulled myself out of bed and went to check on Judah.

I found him curled into a little ball sobbing.  so I ducked down so that I wouldn’t crack my head on his top bunk and gently talked to him and rubbed his back.  He kept crying and so I had to crawl in next to him before he would finally stop crying.  For the next hour or so I had to stay with Judah, because every time I tried to head back to my bed he would start to cry again.  Finally he drifted into a deep enough sleep that I was able to slip out without waking him up.

This morning I find myself really dragging and feeling the effects of losing much needed sleep last night.  Yet, there is something that makes me happy knowing that my son just needed his dad there for him to feel safe enough to sleep.  Each day Judah’s little personality keeps growing and even though I know he’s a momma’s boy, there are times when he just needs his Dad and I can help but smile and think how great that is!

starting the week tired…

For the past few weeks I have had an ongoing battle with insomnia. When I get to bed at a good time it takes me forever to fall asleep and thus negates going to bed early. On the other hand when I stay up a bit later to make sure I am properly worn out before heading to bed I still struggle to sleep. Not sure what the deal is and I don’t want this blog to become a site of whining, but I would appreciate your prayers that sleep would come. And not just an hour or so hear or there, but a good long, restful night’s sleep. The next few weeks are going to be extremely busy and so I desperately need to fall into deep restful sleep each night!

wanting to become a morning person…but don’t know how…

wake upI have battle that I have been fighting for many years in my life.  It’s the fact that I am just not a morning person.  It’s tough for me to get moving and get much done in the early hours of the day.  Don’t get me wrong, when I have to be somewhere, or really have to get going I manage.  I may not be happy or at my peak, but I get things done.  That being said on days where there is a little more time to squeeze for sleep, I just struggle to get moving.

Part of the problem, is that it takes me forever to wind down at the end of the day.  Even when I turn off the television and head to bed at a decent time, I often end up laying their processing all the events of the previous day.  I’ve tried tv and reading to put me to sleep, and event lots of time in prayer, but more often than not, I lay there.  Then the problem runs into the morning when I want to just sleep.

I see the value of getting up and being an early riser.  There could easily be more family time, time for exercise and even more time in the Word and prayer.   I just have to get going…

So how about you?  Any secrets that you could share on becoming a morning person?  On being a productive person during the first part of the day?  Any suggestions are much appreciated!

8:30 pm…

nclock-08-30_34104_lgWhat is 8:30 pm?  Well, for starters its a time that rolls around each evening.  Some might say it’s a half hour past the end of Jeopardy.  Many people have many answers for what 8:30 pm.  To me though it’s a special time where I get finally sit down and relax and catch up on the day and life in general with my beautiful wife Erin.  At 8:30 pm the work day is generally over and on most nights both of my adorable highly active kids are tucked into their beds and hopefully on their way to a good night’s rest.  During this first time alone together, it’s nice just to decompress and enjoy each other’s company.  Hearing about the ups and downs of each others days, the highs and lows.  It’s the time of day where there is someone who is listening to your problems and offering the only advice you really want.  Not only that, but you want to hear their problems and cheer them up as well.  There are times when 8:30 is a silent time where just being together is enough.  Other times are busy and fast paced as we cleanup from that day and busy getting ready for the next day.  No matter what is going on, or how good or bad the day, how loud our how quiet, I am thankful for 8:30 pm, because it always reminds me how blessed I am to be married to such a beautiful, wonderful, Godly woman…

trying to wake up…

tiredmanWell, I am trying to get going this morning and yet I am still feeling the effects of our Teen Lock-In this past Friday night.  While I am still pretty exhausted, I am so thrilled about how our night went.  We had 104 teenagers come out and really had no real problems at all.  There were the usual couples that we had to tell to leave a little distance between them, but if that’s the only real problem, I can handle it.   KMM missionary Scott Brandenburg presented a very clear Gospel presentation to the students, and they really listened well.  Be praying that God will take the message Scott shared and use it to draw the students to Him.  Pray that we will have more opportunities to follow up with the students and continue to share the love of Christ with them.   And last but not least, pray for myself and the rest of our staff to be able to get much needed rest  and to recoup quickly!

my big girl…

My big girl...

My big girl…

Yesterday was a big day at our house.   Maeven finally moved from her crib into a big girl bed!   A few weeks ago Erin’s parents brought us Erin’s old day bed from when she was growing up.  After a little tlc, a new mattress and a safety rail it was all set for Maeven.  Test number one came during Sunday’s nap time.  While jumping on the bed was fun the idea of sleeping in it was a bit scary.  We went through the you have to lay down and no you can’t get in your old bed, followed by a little crying.  Finally she fell asleep for her nap.  Last night she liked it when I sat on her bed and read her night time story, but once again proceeded to cry and talk for an hour before falling asleep.   A few minutes ago I spoke with my wife on the phone and she said during today’s nap time Maeven asked to sleep in her old pink bed, but eventually fell asleep in the new one.  My baby in a big girls bed seems to be a little sad for both me and her.   Hopefully other milestones don’t come this quickly!