weak…

tiredmanThat’s how I feel today…weak.  For the past couple of months I have been going full steam with travel for vacation, deputation, and recruiting, and then on top of all that it’s out busiest time of year here at the Rec Center.  Finally my body has reached the point where it’s telling me to slow down, but unfortunately the schedule is not permitting it.  Until after New Year’s I have an overwhelmingly full ministry/work schedule that just doesn’t let up.  I am writing though not to ask you to pity or feel sorry for me, but to ask you to pray for energy, rest, and strength that only comes from God to get all the work stuff done and still be the father and husband I need to be.  So please please pray for energy!

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starting the week off tired…but choosing joy

IMG_0059This week is already off the a rough start for me.  Due to allergies and varios other things that are flowing around in my mind, I started off today, Monday, the first day of the work week…..tired.  I hate starting the week off tired as Mondays while representing all the things one must accomplish in the upcoming week, also represent all the potential to do and accomplish a lot of great things.  So this morning as I try to get moving, and try to get myself psyched up for the week ahead, I spent my prayer time asking God to help me to have energy, be joyful about all the possiblities and potential for great things this week has, and just be thankfulf or another day and week of life God has blessed me with.  Through foggy tired eyes, its hard to get excited about all we face in life, and I am by no means saying pray and you automatically will be Suzy Sunshine.  However, through praying I am reminding myself what a great God I serve, and that no matter what the week looks like, He will be there with me and so I have hope and joy!  So if you are like me and slow moving this morning and not looking forward to the week, spend some time talking with our great God and choose joy!

feeling tired, but happy

me and my boy...

me and my boy…

Last night as I was just starting to finally get into some good sleep, I heard the sound of my son Judah starting to cry.  I had checked on him a little bit earlier and he sat up to look at me which is never a good sign, but it took him a few minutes to work it into a cry.  I laid in bed hoping he would go to sleep, but the cry kept working its way into weeping and so I pulled myself out of bed and went to check on Judah.

I found him curled into a little ball sobbing.  so I ducked down so that I wouldn’t crack my head on his top bunk and gently talked to him and rubbed his back.  He kept crying and so I had to crawl in next to him before he would finally stop crying.  For the next hour or so I had to stay with Judah, because every time I tried to head back to my bed he would start to cry again.  Finally he drifted into a deep enough sleep that I was able to slip out without waking him up.

This morning I find myself really dragging and feeling the effects of losing much needed sleep last night.  Yet, there is something that makes me happy knowing that my son just needed his dad there for him to feel safe enough to sleep.  Each day Judah’s little personality keeps growing and even though I know he’s a momma’s boy, there are times when he just needs his Dad and I can help but smile and think how great that is!

starting the week tired…

For the past few weeks I have had an ongoing battle with insomnia. When I get to bed at a good time it takes me forever to fall asleep and thus negates going to bed early. On the other hand when I stay up a bit later to make sure I am properly worn out before heading to bed I still struggle to sleep. Not sure what the deal is and I don’t want this blog to become a site of whining, but I would appreciate your prayers that sleep would come. And not just an hour or so hear or there, but a good long, restful night’s sleep. The next few weeks are going to be extremely busy and so I desperately need to fall into deep restful sleep each night!

wanting to become a morning person…but don’t know how…

wake upI have battle that I have been fighting for many years in my life.  It’s the fact that I am just not a morning person.  It’s tough for me to get moving and get much done in the early hours of the day.  Don’t get me wrong, when I have to be somewhere, or really have to get going I manage.  I may not be happy or at my peak, but I get things done.  That being said on days where there is a little more time to squeeze for sleep, I just struggle to get moving.

Part of the problem, is that it takes me forever to wind down at the end of the day.  Even when I turn off the television and head to bed at a decent time, I often end up laying their processing all the events of the previous day.  I’ve tried tv and reading to put me to sleep, and event lots of time in prayer, but more often than not, I lay there.  Then the problem runs into the morning when I want to just sleep.

I see the value of getting up and being an early riser.  There could easily be more family time, time for exercise and even more time in the Word and prayer.   I just have to get going…

So how about you?  Any secrets that you could share on becoming a morning person?  On being a productive person during the first part of the day?  Any suggestions are much appreciated!

mother’s day and a tired tinkerbell…

my tired Tinkerbell...

my tired Tinkerbell…

Our family had a very busy but fun Mother’s Day yesterday.   We enjoyed a great time speaking with our teens at church during Sunday School and worshiping in the main service.  From there we came home where Erin’s parents came over for a Mother’s Day cookout.  While we were getting dinner read, Maeven kept my in-laws entertained.  She put on her full Tinkerbell outfit, fairy wings, tutu, goggles, and a sun hat.   While we sat around the table talking after dinner we heard loud thumping.   It was Maeven jumping off the couch and saying “I fly, I fly!”  When Meme and PopPop got ready to leave we could see that she was fading.  I had to speak at a local church Sunday night to raise funds for FCA camp and before I left Maeven gave in and crashed big time on the couch.   I snuck out without waking her, but Erin said shortly after I left, Judah decided to keep poking his sister in the nose waking her into a 45 minute cry.  Finally, Erin got our tired Tinkerbell to sleep in her own bed.

We had a great time with Erin’s family and celebrating Erin and Cathy as great Mom’s.  I am truly thankful for the way Cathy raised Erin to be such a Godly wife and mom.  I am thankful everyday for the mother that Erin is and is becoming.  She truly loves our kids and views them as a blessing and ministry.  Maeven and Judah couldn’t have a better mother.   Tonight, we are celebrating mother’s day a day late with my mom, Dawn.  I am so thankful for all the love and prayer that my mom has poured into my life over the years and for the Godly example she has been to me!  I am truly blessed by these amazing Godly mothers!

feeling old…

It really hit me hard this weekend.  A fact that I had been wanting to avoid for a long time smacked me upside my head…..yes very brutally it smacked.  The fact is that my body is not as young as it used to be and doesn’t “bounce back” the way it used to.   On Friday night we held our annual Halloween Teen Lock-In at the Rec Center and it went great.  God blessed with a great turn out, great message, and just some great kids.  I went home on Saturday morning very happy with how our outreach went.  As I laid down in my bed about 7:30 on Saturday morning I said a quick prayer and gave thanks to God for a great night.

Next came 2:30 in the afternoon on Saturday.  My wife and daughter came downstairs to my bedroom to wake me up.  As my two year old Maeven ran up to my bed and pounced on me, it was then that I first felt how much the night before had truly taken out of me.  The feeling of thorough exhaustion and soreness permeated my body.  As I tried to lift my daughter and throw her up and catch her like normal, the heart was willing but the body wasn’t able.

I took Saturday as easy as I could relaxing around the house and lightly playing with kids.  Due to Friday night, my internal clock was all messed up and even though I was exhausted sleep did not come easily on Saturday night.  On Sunday morning I bravely pinched myself over and over to keep concentrating in church.  The sermon and sunday school class were excellent, but my “old man bones” were begging me for sleep.

Last night as I lay in bed I finally drifted into a much needed deep sleep and do feel better this morning.  Yet, I still feel like I could use a few days to recover.  In some ways it’s discouraging as I used to be able to be up after a few hours of sleep following a lock-in and out and about.  Whether that be to go hang out with friends play basketball or any other activity. Those days are gone it seems.  The warning being that I need to rest up as much as possible before New Year’s Even when I get to stay up all night again!